“The Darkness before the Holiday lights”

“The Darkness before the Holiday lights”

by Derek Felix AKA D Flex

 

I sit here very quietly in my room

Pondering the brighter days of June

When it’s cold and chilly in December

Daydreaming of special days past to remember

 

Reminded of fun get togethers full of joy

When our family was close knit as a boy

I miss those days with grandma and grandpa

In the land of Coney we always saw

 

Time passes and things begin to change

You grow up and learn the hard way

Adulting isn’t all it’s cracked up to be

There’s not as much fun or free time

 

It’s constant work and paying bills

No wonder it feels so dark outside

A metaphor for the winter around the corner

When temperatures drop, snow falls and ice freezes up

 

As I start up my car, I get chills up and down my spine

Reminded of ghosts past when there was a sense of normalcy

Not the bitterness that surrounds this place

Or the impatience and rude behavior of miscreants

 

It isn’t Chanukah or Christmas around this town

At least not for me when I have no peace

That went out the window long ago

Santa bring your presents and help me see the light

 

I’m tired a lot these days from everything

My birthday came and went without much fanfare

It’s harder when your friends don’t have time for you

And the ones you really care about don’t exist

 

My wish would be to go back to a easier time

When cold Decembers mattered and warmed my heart

Presents were exchanged along with laughter and the spirit of the tree in Rockefeller Center lit up for all to see

A memorable time prior to darkness before the Holiday lights

 

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The Lost Soul

“The Lost Soul”

by Derek Felix AKA DFlex

 

It’s old, dark and gray outside

With a hint of rain drops falling from the sky

In a poetic way, there’s something to hide

Making the darkness make me question why

The morning drive is a cool dreary one

As if the other cars don’t matter

It’s not a day that will see the sun

I’m just awaiting the pitter patter

When it’s over and done

Rain will follow as the day goes on

Turning windy and cooler without fun

A violent howl of wind indicates better days are gone

Followed by a heavier rainfall into the night

That will make you stop and think

With a hidden message that nothing’s gone right

Don’t fall asleep, you might miss it if you blink

As colder air moves into this place

Reminding that winter’s coming and the end of fall

Feel the late autumn breeze hit your face

As our warm spirit ends into the lost soul

A cold day in December

Inspired by all those who have loved ones who make it hard to feel good.

“A Cold Day In December”

by Derek Felix AKA DFlex

The day starts off slowly

Nothing can be seen or heard except darkness

The sun has taken a vacation

Patches of fog lie ahead

And all I want is my bed

Instead, I get up and drive to work

With a numb feeling that won’t go away

Emotions are dead as I get into school

I prepare the best I can for today

With no appetite to speak of

By lunch after three classes, maybe I’m sick

My mood has gotten worse

Along with a upset stomach

It started at the end of Friday

When my anxiety finally kicked in

I’ve been down about something

Which has me stressed out

My birthday is Friday and I don’t care

If only someone changed, maybe I’d feel differently

And have a sunny disposition instead of a ice cold one

It doesn’t seem to matter that the weather warmed up

Or that the sun escaped the dreary clouds

That struck at the crack of dawn

As if symbolic of my inner struggle

I don’t eat because I’ve lost my desire

I’m not starving myself due to sadness

But the loss of taste and the boredom of food

I could disappear and no one would care

I miss my friends and if only they were close by

That would improve my attitude

And bring hope to a dire situation

Work shouldn’t be the most exciting part

No wonder I’ve become lonesome

Almost as if suffering from a broken heart

I miss the carefree days when it was easy

No one critiqued my every move

And they were much different

Even when I do the right thing

It seems they’re disappointed

Only pushing more negativity which makes me crash

I smile and laugh on the outside

Hiding my true feelings

I’m professional and enjoy the kids I teach

They make it easier on a cold day in December

Where it can be fifty and I still shiver

That’s my dilemma as I get ready for two more classes

I’ll put on a show for the students because it’s what they deserve

But the somber feeling will return when I get to my car

I’ll drive home and listen to the radio

Music is a good distraction to drown my sorrows

That will help me on the way home

And maybe a ride to the park and walk

All to escape my reality

In the brightest city in the world

“The Hype”

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“The Hype”

By Derek Felix AKA Flex

 

It was all about the hype 

You were it from the very beginning

Always looking fresh and ripe 

A magnet that’s always winning 

 

One of life’s jewels of the nile 

All fancy dancy in full bloom 

As you style and profile walk down that aisle

Turning days of cold gloom into warm June 

 

Cause you’re a star the one that shines 

A perfect gem that lights up the night 

Inspiring me to new heights and rhymes 

You’re like Air Jordan taking full flight 

 

I can see you rising above the rest 

Flying over the florescent sky 

You know that deep down you’re the best 

The unique one who stands so high 

 

The hype 

Is for real 

The hype 

Has always been the real deal

Someone who makes me smile 

I wish you’d stay a while 

We could sip champagne 

And dance in the purple rain 

Letting the drops touch our hair 

Living life without fear 

 

You were always the hype 

Who was in my dreams 

Your unique design so fine

When I see your laser beams 

 

Captivating me as I am left speechless 

I’m addicted to your sweet candy 

My head turns at your sight all breathless 

Searching for your vanilla chocolate all tasty

 

As you walk towards me my heart races

The pounding growing as anxiety kicks in 

Reminding me of the old school group changing faces

Just for one look I’ll take it and sip gin and win

 

You’re like the moon on the best night 

So desirable and undeniable full of glow 

Standing out like a rock star under Broadway lights

Cause damn you’re the whole show 

 

The hype 

Was all the proof

The hype 

Because you’re the truth

We can raise the roof 

Till the crack of dawn

We can soar to new heights 

And enjoy the midnight sky 

Your the hype of love 

I never questioned why

“Heaven”

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This one doesn’t have a title. I just wrote it on Facebook as a status and did it from heart. What else. ❤

Come to think of it. I’ll call it “Heaven.”

“Heaven”

by Derek Felix AKA D Flex 

If I told you the truth
You’d be floored
As we raise the roof
Drinks on me are poured

In a unique place of love
Full of enthusiasm and peace
Two fingers to the sky above
Like Bob Marley that’s our piece

Cause Jimi plays in heaven
With more soul shredding the electric guitar
Playing our star spangled banner
The way it should be like a rockstar

I can see you 2Pac in the air
Rapping about real issues nothing fake
Living your life without fear
Cause Makaveli was always wake

I’ll see you one day up in the puffy whites
We’ll groove to only the best magic beats
Shedding so much under the electric lights
An art of poetry so good we can taste it so sweet

Flying in over a rainbow dressed in black
With virtuoso sounds and words of mine
Leaving no doubt that we’ll be back
Always knowing that y’all are so fine

“In A Flash” Part I

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“In A Flash” Fea. Luniz I Got 5 On It (Instrumental)

by Derek Felix 

 

One day I saw you for the very first time

Damn right I knew I wanted to make you mine

You had that sick flow with the rhythm and rhyme

A unique style and profile that made you so fine 

 

You would show up and time would stand still 

Heads would turn to see you cause looks could kill

Had it all from head to toe you broke my will 

I’d take you on a roller coaster ride just for the cheap thrill 

 

We would go up and down until the end of time 

Me admiring your work of art and design 

And that pleasant smile that never lost its shine 

I would like to taste you and sip your fine wine 

 

I’d get down on my knees as if to propose  

Cause that’s how witty and pretty you are your rose 

The one that’s ruby red lips like cherry all good to go

You light up like Broadway dancing to the beat in this show 

 

In a flash 

You lit up the sky 

In a flash 

You took me so high 

I couldn’t get down 

From your mesmerizing sight

No somber days with you around

Your sparkling cider makes it alright 

Let’s make it last forever 

And I promise we’ll be together 

“The Winter Moon”

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“The Winter Moon”

by Derek Felix 

The winter moon 

Catches my eyes at night

It mesmerizes like a golden June

Warming up the cold through its light

It gives me strength 

To believe in love 

I’m carried on by its length 

As I’m captivated by what’s above

I find myself staring at the sky

We have to look at it from a different view

Change our perspective instead of being shy

There’s a hidden message that rings true 

It can tell me things I didn’t know

Pointing me in another direction 

It appeals and reveals its inner glow

Almost warning me for protection 

I’m forever taken by what I see

Half or full it’s in full bloom 

Creating a world of fantasy 

That shall show itself soon 

I can’t describe the feeling 

Except it gives me more in colder air

I walk in the street admiring the universe’s ceiling

Erasing the pain and fear with cheer

I know you so well 

That your world is filled with sunshine 

I was always able to tell 

Painting pictures like a fancy rhyme 

I’ll see you on the other side 

And rise up slowly and open your door

You’ll greet me warmly with nothing to hide

Awaiting my arrival in your corridor

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